The Ear

I might be known to my friends and families, the ear….not only loves to eavesdropping (Don’t blame on me but I guess im always lucky to accidently hear or perhaps some can’t control their volume) but also always have lend my ear to their problems. Some desperately needed to pour out their heartaches, problems…some even crying, needed help or even seek for my opinion and decision (can u believe that some people just don’t know what they need)…..always, always I can’t reject when they needed my ear…..so I gave them what they wanted…personal opinion, advices n time. I never never never expect anything in return. I’ve been doing this since I was in secondary school ( I guess I’m a good listener) and Some friends says, I should open a counseling clinic and charge (Yeah right!). You might think I’m just boasting here but actually is not an advantage at all. Truly, I’ve been keeping it to myself my frustration, tiredness and stupidity for the craps being told to me.

I just don’t get it why some never been grateful to what they have or being grateful to the hardtime they have been through. They just keep on complaining of some imperfection, regretting the past, problem with the bf, gf, spouse,colleagues, family etc….they never have realize that all of that have made them of what they are today. I don’t mind listening to it but please have a mercy on my feeling. What you all think im just a problem dumpster? Look for me only when you have problem?.....one of them even so forceful need my advice and paid me with lunch/dinner and dare to say to me “so we’re even. I don’t owe u”…gosh!!!!....what am I to them? I was so hurt I was being treated like that on one of the scenario but I didn’t say much as that particular person is close to me . Perhaps he/she just want to be assured that they are genius than me or to confirm I’m stupid. Whats the point.?

I guess what I’ve done has never been appreciated (it’s not that I want it but it is something which supposed to come naturally) and im pretty sure keeping in touch with me is an obligation to them which I never asked for. When I really needed someone to speak to, its very hard for me to find one who always be there. I’m not saying there have been thousands seeking my ear, but all I can say, I can make a book out of all the problems I ever heard personally from them. Some are never ending story.

Ok I think I got to stop this…..hmmm….why am I writing this? Just another crapping session