In my previous two jobs, I was most of the time occupied with my office task and sometimes i can be really really damn busy until i forgot to eat or need some overtime to finish my work. I remember how i struggle to find alternatives and how i was so proactive on critical thinking and being argumentative during discussion(positive one bah). That time, i think i'm very useful and valuable to the company.....yeah thats how feel...Just that i'm not so satisfied with my wage (everyone was)
Now, in my current job, i'm so grateful with my salary but i'm not that happy....i've been asking myself for quite sometimes why i'm not happy here....i dont have problem with colleagues or my sub-o....i dont think they have much prob with me (i know they are not happy with their wages but be patient guys,hang on there guys, i'm doing my best to fight for it)....i enjoyed the activities they have here..BUT
SOmehow i just have some very unhappy feelings....and i think now i know why after awhile.My current position is very challenging but somehow my job is seasonal...occupied on certain time only...i get very demotivated and passive....when i force myself to get active, i feel stress....
Currently, i'm lobbying a proposal...i hope that proposal will help me to get myself back active and help the sub-o....i know they are too free now....not so being challenge. I dont see them as busy as myself from my previous job.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
On and Off
It's been awhile again....
I was just lazy to update, somtimes i wanted to write but forgot, sometimes too stress to write or just dunno what to write....
Somehow today, i'm feel i need to do something and first thought was to write here....
for the past 2 months i did:
1. paperworks, paperworks and paperworks....i need at least 2 weeks each to finish it...i was superstress coz my mind stuck and numb....ideas can just be gone for seconds.Not enough sleep etc....I didnt spend much time playing with my daughter...
2. During raya break, my family and i visited major towns on the eastern side of Sabah....the trip was kind of fun and interesting, even though tiring.
3.I enjoyed the tennis USA open....was fan of Wozniacki and Oudin....was sohappy that finally there is someone else other than Nadal who can defeat Federer...Del Potro
4.had bad ulcer in my throat...can't eat or talk and i lost 4kg because of that....Yeay! but i gain few more after that...blame on durian season....I eat durian everyday....every single day until i get bloated.
5.cut my hair...
6. went to Tip of Borneo again
7. blah blah blah...oppsss go to go now...forgotten to do something...i'll be writing again....but dunno when....hihihihi
I was just lazy to update, somtimes i wanted to write but forgot, sometimes too stress to write or just dunno what to write....
Somehow today, i'm feel i need to do something and first thought was to write here....
for the past 2 months i did:
1. paperworks, paperworks and paperworks....i need at least 2 weeks each to finish it...i was superstress coz my mind stuck and numb....ideas can just be gone for seconds.Not enough sleep etc....I didnt spend much time playing with my daughter...
2. During raya break, my family and i visited major towns on the eastern side of Sabah....the trip was kind of fun and interesting, even though tiring.
3.I enjoyed the tennis USA open....was fan of Wozniacki and Oudin....was sohappy that finally there is someone else other than Nadal who can defeat Federer...Del Potro
4.had bad ulcer in my throat...can't eat or talk and i lost 4kg because of that....Yeay! but i gain few more after that...blame on durian season....I eat durian everyday....every single day until i get bloated.
5.cut my hair...
6. went to Tip of Borneo again
7. blah blah blah...oppsss go to go now...forgotten to do something...i'll be writing again....but dunno when....hihihihi
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